Monday, December 27, 2004 01:14 p.m.
MOOD: A sorta i'm happy/grr angry stage
Song: I'm not okay(i promise) by My Chemical Romance
I'm in love with the sweatest person i know, who can always make me smile and laugh. We can talk and we are friends. But he's also one of the shiest people i know...But i realise that i am just as shy as he is prolly. I know what i need to do...but...i guess...i'm worried about all those enievitable things...and being rejected... you all shout "YOU KNOW HE FEELS THE SAME WAY!!! WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR"....i have been hurt some many times in the past...i want to make sure everything is okay. I wish he could come up to me and be like...Kelly...i feel the same way you do...i mean maybe he does...maybe he's just afraid...like me...i really do care about him alot...but whatever.

Christmas was good...i got my guard jacket..but also got a book on the viola, pj's, a sweater, jewlery, gloves, candy, a wallet(since i've been using a altoids tin for my money) my brother got me some blank tee shirts so Carolyn and i will have to get together during the break and make some more geeky originals...i also got some manga too! I got forbidden dance #3 and fruits basket #2...very cool and i don't have any of these titles. got a gift certificate at barns and knobles...so i must go there and get some more!

other wise that's all that's up...people are stupid and have dumb things in there profiles and if i had any backbone i would im this person and tell them what a jerk they are and that they don't deserve all the...lets say..."postive attention" they get from EVERYONE! They are a cocky, dumb, thinks there better than everyone person and deserve to be hit at least once! but...since i have no backbone...plus this person would know that it was me or a friend and soon all of this person's friends would be talking and chattering about it...and i cracked from that once already this year. I honestly thought that all of this stuff would be water under the bridge but apparently this person holds a grudge....interesting since this person is supposed to be flawless and perfect...HAH! don't make me laugh...if anything they are as screwed up as they come and I HATE YOUR VOICE!!! thank you..............i have spoken

Had enough of all this stuff...i'm going to do stuff...

want to do something during the break? call me or something...

KellyFriday, December 17, 2004 11:38 a.m.
Hi WE GOT THE NEW COMPUTER! however i am at school right now and i just finished something for American Cit. So blah you cant yell at me! Once the computer at home gets all set up i'm going to put some peoms and blurbs from stories on here i think.... eh just a thought.

Well i hope everybody who is reading my life saga is well...cant really say i am my ankle is still all discombobulated and BLAH! and relationship wise...i am at a standstill... i know what i need to do...but i'm scared...and i'm sure he'd say yes...but i would prolly explode or melt into a pile of goo before i could get the words out. simple words really "will you go out with me?" but with such a big meaning and an even bigger answer. Kudos to all you people who can just ask someone...i never could...

I'm leaving now
Sunday, December 12, 2004 11:08 p.m. Hi everybody at school because our lovely gateway has crashed...The new dell should be here soon.Thursday, October 21, 2004 10:58 a.m.
"I'd give up forever to touch you

Cuz i know that you feel me some how

Your the closest to heaven that i'll ever be

and i don't want to go home right now

cuz all i can taste is this moment

and all i can breathe is your life

but sooner or later it's over

and i don't want to miss you tonight...."
Friday, October 8, 2004 11:44 a.m.
THE QUESTION OF THE DAY IS...

"WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU WANT TO PLAY ANOUTHER INSTRUMENT AND YOUR MOTHER WONT LET YOU EVEN THOU YOU WANT TO GROW UP AND BE A MUSIC MAJOR?"

THERE IS NO CORRECT ANSWER....GAH....X_X

BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh!

I finished my project in music tech and now i'm typing this...ITS NOT EMAIL MR. S! lol and i have nothing better to do but to sit here and type this thing....maybe it's bad that i can type so fast AND LOUD JEEZ!!!

so back to what i was talking about before...it really sux because i was only playing the french horn for like 15 minutes today and i guess i was doing really good...now if only my mommy would just say it was okay...i mean even if i didn't join band...it would still be really good to know for college...what ever...she just doesn't understand *acts hurt and such...lol

Arght never let MR. S. read your Journal entry...(embarrassed)esspecially...in like a class and stuff

Sparing myself the embarassment

the spaz or THS
Tuesday, September 28, 2004 12:28 p.m.
Hey it's tuesday and IT'S RAINING!!!! ARGH! but whatever...we have band regardless...It really sucks that i haven't had time to write a big long entry but if you haven't noticed i have the schedule from heck. we won't get started on that right now though...so back at the ranch...What happened today that is remotley interesting...well basically school sucks...they should have more music classes...and enhancement is basically the only thinkg i look forward too...and that's not for doing my homework...he really really really confuses me...and he is nosey too...but thats okay he could be nosey about other stuff and not me...but instead he is nosey about me...and wow I AM SERIOIUSLY RAMBLING HERE!!!yah i'm okay...really...lol...blah blah blah blah okay anywho i prolly should go...this really isnt that much longer...oh well...later

The Spazy Kro
Tuesday, September 21, 2004 12:46 p.m.
ack...cake walk doesnt work so i'm just kind of sitting here...just don't know what else to talk about right now and at teh risk of getting in trouble i'm gonna keep this short...ttyl...me
Wednesday, July 28, 2004 09:25 a.m.
Wow has it been a dog’s age or what?

Wow I think is the busiest summer in my 15 years of life…oh and it’s only going to get more hectic come August (WOOT BAND CAMP!) you know if I had a dime for every time someone asked me what I was doing this summer…and I said Band camp, and they replied… “Like one time…at band camp…I…” I would be rich! Jeez!

But back at the Ranch…I’m at dance camp…Well I’m not there right now but…I go everyday at 11:30 and well…here let me give you the low down on the past two days…

Crafts- I got to make scrunchies…of course I’m easily amused so…I was content for a while there…. lol Today and Tomorrow were making Scrap bookie type thingies… Ballet- is a blast! I miss it so much! I’m sore thou…you try dancing for 4 or 5 hours in a row…today I dance for 6 and Thursday…I wont be home till 9…but that’s a partay and all that Jazz…

Guest Dance Time- Monday we did belly dancing…hah…that was a laugh…Tuesday was Nia…hard to describe…lots of movement and like ti-chi…today we have Yoga (ouch…) and Thursday…I haven’t a clue…

Jazz/Hip Hop- I friggin love that song! Omg! I have this habit that I dance everywhere I go…so I was doing that dance in the shoe section of Wal-Mart…yah I am a freak…

Acro- Monday was okay…but yesterday…I was doing my backhand springs weird…well today I have double acro (I have camp and classes…) so I shall work very hard…

Drama- This is prolly my favorite part of the day…we do skits and stories and stuff like that…we played the statue game…where you have to hold a pose and when the person who is it is not looking…you change position…but if they catch you ur out…and other stuff…

Yah it’s so fun…and a bunch of my friends are there and blah blah…well I gotta go…

I gets to see my scruffy soon! <3 I’m so happy! “My boy” harh harh and pigs they fly!

Well gots to go and such… mucho love…

Kelly Anne
Tuesday, June 8, 2004 04:56 p.m.
Sorry it’s been so long…very busy…and feeling just plain anti-social…

Things to recap on…Saturday was my dance recital. Yah I slept late then woke up, showered, and did my hair…then I changed into my Jazz costume. I brought the other two with me. I put on more makeup than I have ever put on in my entire life…I swear it took me 20 minutes just to put in on. Then I had to do touch ups and stuff. Blah..blah…I waited around for what felt like forever with Ashley, Stacie and Co…did my jazz dance…(which was the worse of all I did…) then sat around some more. Got to work on my story so that was good. Then I did my lyrical dance. Melissa’s solo was amazing and well, I think we did the best we prolly did the whole year. Ran downstairs, changed, ran upstairs and danced again…Acro this time…(I DIDN’T drop the girl) woot…watched my mother dance..got ready for the finale and sat around while miss Deb talked and everyone in the audience looked absolutely bored. (sorry) Then I hooked up with Carolyn and Elayna after words…it was a good night.

Speaking of Carolyn… YAY CAROLYN I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU! (Hehehehe)

Next day I woke up and got ready for my confirmation…and had a conversation with the bishop about my Conformation name while in line…I felt bad for holding up the line but eh…a lot of people think it’s cool that I am a musician…I love what I do…

Hard to believe school is almost over but I’m glad it is…people always talk about High school and the drama (like the gossip and stuff) and I was like no…that will never happen to me…eh…Time heals all wounds. Sorry guys…but w/e

I had something to say…and I don’t know how to say it with out using names so forget it.

I HAD A GREAT DAY! Yah hard to explain why…but yah…

Argh I have something to say…and I don’t know how to say it…but…eh

“It’s like he has two smiles…one he saves special for you.” Carolyn said that to me and I noticed that she’s right…Unless we are both going crazy….(I doubt it) lol I’ll try to keep you updated on that…even though school is almost over. Hey I still got two years…lol I’m not going anywhere…lol..

Well I gotta go…hey question. If you don’t like me and your reading this, doesn’t that mean you like me enough that you would want to read this, or what?

Just something for u to think about…

tootles SCRUFFY! BYE!

Kelly
Monday, May 24, 2004 05:53 p.m. Well it's been a while no?

Tonight is my last concert of Freshman year. Just reflecting, for the most part Freshman year was okay. There were a few rough spots and this whole thing were i swear @!#$*^ is plotting to kill me but other wise things were okay and i have made so many friends.

I also figured out what i want to do with my life...i want to go to music school and be like a music teacher. So i need to learn more instruments...Any suggestions...I was thinking like Clarinet or Oboe or something different to start with...i have like a bajillion i want to learn...so u have any suggestions let me know...

i would make this longer but...me hast to go...i have to get my viola together and everything...and get ready...

WE ARE NOT READY

Runaways was awesome

i really need to go

SINNER!!! whoops (heeeeeheee)

Tootles ME
Friday, April 30, 2004 09:26 p.m. Hi everyone...i really don't know why but i'm depressed...i haven't a clue...and i was like falling asleep at dance...after my class i went in the other studio to watch and i was like falling asleep...iono...what's up with that...one of those days i guess............................ so today was the first day of Full orchestra...yep i have to say it was a new experience and it was cool/loud to be in front of the brass...Justin was a lil ticked with H but hey who doesn't have those days...i have those at least once a week and trust me...i usualy let it be known with my sarcasm or something...It's going to take alot of work but we are going to sound awesome!........................... Hey i can really see why people go crazy and shoot some one sometimes...if they had to deal with the "fab 5" (cough cough cough...omg ur so F***ing gay i could smack you cough cough) oooo i didn't say anything...grr...yah sometimes history urks me to no extent...but there are a few good things...The friends in that class are awesome...but that's about that...............................I gots my costume for lyrical(dance) tonight...if you all want to come in see me look like a prison inmate...wear a blue (oooo key word here heh heh) dress...and look like a nascar driver WHILE holding up younger children and diving over my cousin...talk to me...and if ur not all ready in it...come to see it...it costs 12 dollars...i'm having a thingy afterwards...with my family if u want to be a lameo and hang out with us all after... well that that...tootles.. Tuesday, April 27, 2004 08:15 p.m. hi everyone...wow...i still get all confused when i work on this...i was real dumb and lost the password for Kroqt so i'm just going to use this one again... and i still don't know how to space these thingies... carolyn i copying you....lol _______Your Life_______ [x] they call me: Kell, Kro...etc [x] sex: Female. [x] my first breath of air: May 20th 1989... [x] status: Single... it sux!!! [x] occupation: Student. [x] best friends: I don't want to list and leave someone else but i have a Bajillion friends! _______Rewind_______ [x] most memorable memory: some are memorable for laughter or for tears...either way i could never choose! [x] worst?: Many things...some i wouldn't like to talk about... [x] first word uttered: Does Russin-Like Babble count? That's what my mom used to always say i did! [x] first best friend ever!?: dunno Ashley or Stacie or Stacie's bro! _______Love?_______ [x] love is: Many things somedays all u need is love(hah second beatles thing in one day!) and other days i wish it would crawl in a hole and die... [x] first love: a boy that in Second Grade....i dont even remember his name cuz he moved away... [x] love or lust?: uh love [x] when love hurts, you: Cry sometimes...get bitter...do nothing or mope and act odd in front of the other person.. [x] true or false: what? um...true? [x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: yes and i could use MommaFatHead for an example _______Opposite Sex_______ [x] turn ons: able to be themselves, that they don't care what others think and would even embarrass themselves in front of me and laugh it off...that they are completley random at times and love to have fun...sense of humor...kind and well...idk...eyes that are deep and although it's not always tru...blue eyes do wonders... [x] do your parent's opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: no they are usually like are like aren't u young to date? but sometimes they agree with me but like i'm going to listen to what they say... [x] what kinda hair style?: meh it really don't matter just i cant stand long hair...i'd chop it off while he was sleeping...(mullets are gross) [x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you: a smile... a laugh...a hug... [x] where do you go to meet new people?: i don't go places looking for people...it just happens...u click with sumone... [x] are you the type of person to HOLLER and ask for numbers?: no too shy... _______Picky Picky_______ [x] dog or cat: KITTY!!! [x] short or long hair: on girls long boys shorter [x] sunshine or rain: rain [x] moon or sun: Moon!!! heh [x] hugs or kisses: Hugs [x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: One best friend. [x] summer or winter: Summer [x] written letters or e-mails: i like both [x] playstation or nintendo: i've had both and there are good games for both...nuff said.. [x] car or motorcycle: Car [x] house party or club: House party. [x] sing or dance: oooh dance! _______Lately_______ [x] how are you today? dunno.meh as usual... [x] what pants are you wearing right now? dark blue ones... [x] What shirt are you wearing right now? My Linkin Park Tee WOOT!! [x] what does your hair look like at the moment? Ugly...i hate my hair.. [x] what song are u listening to right now? Nothing...but i have hoedown stuck in my head!! [x] how is the weather right now? dark and iono... [x] last person you talked to on the phone? when i called my mom at work [x] last dream you can remember? The pretty was like a knight...and well he died to save...me and(censored) (Carolyn and Carissa know who i am talking about)...i cried...but it really inspired me...i'm writing a manga about it... [x] who are you talking to right now? I was talking to Stacie [x] what time is it? 8:37 PM _______More About YOU!_______ [x] what are the last four digits of your phone number? 1771 [x] if u were a crayon, what color would you be? I am purple...so purple of course... [x] have you ever almost died? no... [x] do u like the person that sent u this? I stole it from Carolyn and Carolyn is my BSHOFGU fellow obsessive fan girl! [x] what's the next CD you are going to buy? Brandnew...Deja Entandu [x] what's the best advice ever given to you? "You can be whatever you want to be all u gotta do is believe in yourself....and don't start drinking... look what it did to me..." Marie from dance is awesome... [x] have u ever won any special award? i won an award for drawing last year...it was for dance...(see how my whole life revolves around it) [x] what's the stupidest thing u have ever done? i do stupid things daily [x] how many kids do you want to have? Three.. and if things don't work out i'm adopting... [x] shampoo? why Herbal Essenses Hawafeena of course! lol [x] what are you most scared of? alot of things...people...the future...eh who cares... [x] how many TV's do you have in your house? 4 [x] do you have your own TV? i wish i would never leave mey room... [x] have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone? i'm am i clutzoid...plus when u dance lots of things get hurt...hands,ankles,fingers,feet,knees,backs,tailbones, wrists...(those are all things i've hurt) [x] who do you dream about? teeheehee if i told u...i would have to kill u...lol [x] who do you tell your dreams to? my brother...Carolyn and others... [x] who's the loudest friend you have? Kirsten [x] who's the quietest friend? HAH!!! i don't think any of my friends are quiet [x] Is cheerleading a sport? sorry but besides the acrobatic aspect to it...i hate it... [x] how many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Pop? i never...counted...i don't have the attention span...Monday, April 5, 2004 08:12 p.m. YES FREEDOM!! I AM NO LONGER GROUNDED FROM MY LIFE SUPPORT the internet!! wow...so anywho what happened while i was away.... we painted my room...its green! woot! and i love it i moved my beds on the floor...it is so neat...omg... Sunday i went to go see the passion play...even though i went last year...i was truly moved once more...the angels...especially the lil ones were o so adorable I WANT TO BE IN THE PLAY! I got Judas' autograph he was hot stuff yo...like as cool...had a good voice and well...i'm just weird... today was nice no math...I HATE HER i had history...that was okay...geraldine...lmao English: I hate her... Orhcestra...WE GOT THE CHICAGO MUSIC!!! and capt was gay as usual....but that's anouther story... i'm bored...and feel like doing stuff...woot...inthe writing mood...i wrote one in religous ed and it was about murder...iono..iliked it... tootles..KEllyWednesday, March 31, 2004 07:13 p.m. I want to slip into someone elses body...to hear what u have to say....to see if u talk about me...lovingly...if i could jump inside ur brain to see if u look at me and feel things about me like i feel about u...i wish i could be with u and even if it was just a day...i would still be so happy...and if i died my last wish would be to kno that u loved me... like that would ever happen...sunk in sadness... okay recap of today before school was hilarious...but then again when isn't it...those people all brighten up my day...i seriously don't know what i would do with out them... Math: "and i said to myself...self" omg i think i should keep track of how many times she says that during one class and then count how many times she uses the retarted paper light bulbs... History: won jepeody...Dustin give his whole team hi-fives every time they got a question and Ben and Sal"it's so hard to seperate gay couples" LMAO aj...thank u, for once we actually agree on something!!! No english today Orhcestra: we got new music today...it was pretty cool but we aren't even using it...but i heard that we got some good stuff and there are some full orchestra pieces!!! woot! lunch was funny while we we crazy over...BAP!! he waved but that was because he was so absorbed in what he was doing...hah... dance was pretty univentful... and now i'm here my book gives me the creeps...omg...i'm afraid to walk anywhere by myself now... ttyl... Kelly Sunday, March 28, 2004 06:49 p.m. Mood: Meh Song: ZZ top-sharp dressed man! Hey this is my new journal place...yah this place i can actualy get pictures and crap on it...well i just wrote this farewell one on my other one...so iono what to talk about... he is pretty everything he does is pretty and if u haven't heard about it from reading Carolyns thingy u are nuts... he is super geeky but super cute!!he gets freaked out but....WOOT! (forget the rhyming) one is a bigger music nerd than i am... and anouther is a great source of humor... lol...so check back for for BSHOFGU fun and become a member if u dare!!! dunno what else...gotta get off... tootles... Kelly